February 2011
1 post
So at one point, ive come to notice that i dont care anymore. I dont care about them worrying, them staying up, them hurting…i dont care about the threats they’ve told me or the many restrictions they’ve put onto me. I’ve heard so much of it all that I have become immune to all of it…but honestly, on some level, i still do care. I care so much and thats one thing i...
September 2010
2 posts
I know you care. I know your trying to look out for us..but the more you keep pushing and forcing to be closer, the more your really pushing me away. You cant force anyone in feeling any certain way or can you even force a bondess..it just comes with the time spent on your own free will. i wish you could see that..b/c once i have the chance to move out, ill take that.
its true, i have changed. ive become someone different, but i think its part of growing up..changing &experincing diff moments..parents can only do so much. they cant always protect u frm everything in this world. they can only guide u…but theres two outcomes to that..either u can accept it or reject it…&my feel on this whole overtaking of someone’s life is rejection.
August 2010
5 posts
i care bout u..but if i see the other one, he makes me feel it again..i cant see him, i cant be around me. he’s no good for me &wat i have no is legit. i cant screw this up, not again -_-
scared for something new..always wanted it, but not sure how to handle it. idk, i dont want to admit it jst yet, at least outloud…im thinkin of denying it some more so i dont feel that way
he made me feel somethin for a while, now its jst a game. i usd to really care but now its dwindling. its all a game now ¬ much feelings are involved. im jst glad that ive become less attached..
OK so ive been telling myself over and over..im over him. Its been 5 months &i thought i was over him right?? i look at the pics again and my heart drops. i start remembering why i even cared that much about you &what attracted me in the first place. i started to remember your voice &how you were w/ me. you need to leavee!
Questions
So why it that whenever it seems like you finally found someone different, they really arent? Why is it that when you finally have those feelings for someone, they screw you over and do you wrong? How come people find people who are unattainble sexy? Fuck it tho. No one deserves to be treated like a toy or a plaything. But then again, it is nature in us to want things that we can’t have....
July 2010
4 posts
I usd to wonder how he cud do that to me..now i do it but my excuse is, i nevr had deep feelings for any of them like u supposdly had..
PS. i think im really srting to move on frm him. Im pretty sure if i see him, it might come bk tho…but i want to see him. i miss my friend. i miss the guy who i cud talk to &make me feel safe. But as of ryt now, i barely feel anything for him which ive been wanting for the longest time. Its been too long since uve had this grip on me &finally, it seems like its loosening.
i dnt like him. i noe i make it seem like that, but then agen, i can make a lot of things look a certain way. i dnt have the strongest feelings for this person, jst plain infatuation. Period.
We’ve been selfish. I’ve been selfish. I need to stop &step up. She needs help &i should be doing something.
June 2010
7 posts
i noe i dnt get attached. in fact, i seem very unattached. at times, it looks like i dnt give a shit. it seems like i move on fast; it seems like i really cud care less…&sometimes thats true. but on rare moments, i really do care. once i become attached, its not that easy for me to get unattached. fuck, im attached to him -_- not physically apprently, jst emotionally. doesnt look like it ...
Guys are like tools…or maybe even toys. Either way, you can take it out of its case &use it. They’re out there for you to use, to play w/, to occupy your time. Sometimes they’ll break, but you can always replace them. There are however, very few that you can actually keep &wont break down.I want that kind!
We limit ourselves w/ fears;we keep ourselves contained in thought that we might make fools of ourselves. We don’t strive for our best b/c we might fail so ‘wats trying?’ going to do? We contemplate on whether or not to do it &at end result, we decide against it b/c maybe its better not to look stupid than to take chances. We take steps everyday avoiding the cracks &the...
i hate how we wont get in trouble if one of us is home..&since one is normally more selfish, im stuck at home =((
We’re graduating! Its pretty sad how i can look back in those school yrs &realize how much ive missed out on! But then again, i realized how much memories ive made. i learned wat true friendships are & a hint of the real world. Ive made new memories &im glad i met everyone who i did meet. Theyve made an impact on me, good &bad.
i dont like him; im not attached at all &i actually hardly think of him…but i do smile whenever he texts me &he does make me laugh. its weird…
“Looking back you realize that a very special...
I can’t believe its still like that for me, just a little bit.
May 2010
7 posts
“Men cheat for the same reason that dogs lick...
Boys are easy. You can get them to do things for u, but only b/c they think they can get that one thing they’re always after.
im NOT going to put up w/ this all ovr again!
For a slight moment, i thot i liked him…wth! thats not supposed to happen! canttttt! never again remember??
I havent been on Tumblr in the longest time..its pretty weird. Neways, so life! Been wrkin my ass off lately. Like i dnt mind. I want to help my parents pay for college; I want to be able to not depend on them as much. Really tho, i never thot of myself as really independent, but apparently i am more independent than others. Im proud.
“I know girls, and none of us is that nice.”
– (via iangela)
April 2010
8 posts
Ugh! Im mad at myself! Im mad at how i lag&at how i let soooo many opportunities pass by b/c ive gotten so lazy!!
I honestly miss the giggly feeling. I miss feeling something & getting the butterflies. I miss the times I’d smile wen i get a text from a certain someone &getting to know that person. Really though, I jst miss feeling, period.
I remember the last time i really read…it was a while bk &it made me feel better. i havent really read in a while. i usd to go here wen i was feeling down&under the weather. ive been avoiding this place b/c it reminded me of the situations i usd to put myself in. for a while, i didnt want to be somewhere decently quiet so that i was forced to think..im ovr that now. im goin to mature...
I dnt noe nemore if its u that i miss or wat happened between us that i actually miss..
"I hate how shit stays on your mind, no matter how...
(via destinyrickelle)
March 2010
27 posts
Yeahh every guy is a price, you should already know that.
I loveee goodmorning txts. Makes me think that they think of u wen they wake up(= but lately, ive been hating em…still bitter -
FWD: k, can you hurry up now? i have no more food to keep me company. hahah but seriously
Some will always still be that same person u spent time w/. Feels like i got it bk, even tho it wasnt as it was before.
Having had her made me grow up &learn more about myself. She made me realize even more that we’re all not that different &that we make the same mistakes, in our own unique way.
Made a promise w/ her. Going to try my bestest to stick w/ it.
Name calling.
I don’t see why girls call other girls sluts, hoes, etc. Apprently they don’t like it when they themselves get called a slut, but when time comes down &a girl messes up, they call her a slut. They’ve prolly messed up as bad as you, made the same mistakes, & worse-case-scenrio, you’ve done worse than her, but yet, you have the ordasity to call another girl a slut or...
Vanity; seems like they care more about their looks more than their actual health.
“Everything is born out of passion. Tell me sir, if you’re doing things that you...”
– Angelica Sison (kittenmee) (via quote-book)
Deep down, im still mad. Im angry &even more hesitant &less willing.
Trust your own instinct. Your mistakes might as well be your own, instead of someone else’s
I shud do that more often..
Jackie Krystle!!!
Dont everrr talk ‘bout my parents &wat goes on their bed! fknn nasty!
-:”If you’re a virgin, that means Paris Hilton is a virgin”
Me: “omgosh! I’m tellin the truth!”
Jealous. Mad. Angry. Resentful. She’s younger, im way older. Im more mature, never did anything as stupid as her, ever. Im not screwed up, or least that’s what my sisters tell me; they say I have a chance, unlike her. Then why don’t they give me that trust &let me do the things that they let her?? They think that giving her freedom would help her? Doubt it. She’s done...
it still kinduh hurts, jst a lil sting tho..ok, well more than a lil..